Ok so it's now 2015 and I am a bit disappointed as I can not keep up with one single thing these days. Currently I'm sitting in a Starbucks typing this listening to some old school Kelly Clarkson as I wait for my doctors appointment. Let me just get this out of the way first, I don't believe people really read this anyway, I am contemplating quitting my job and starting over somewhere else. In all honesty I've always hated it but I get paid well and have health insurance and I just don't want to give those up. I of course won't quit until I get a new job but now I am feeling overwhelmed because I don't know what to do. This was my first actually adult job and actually today is my 18 month anniversary. SAD, I dread going there everyday which proves my point that this is not the job for me. I live at home with my parents and I'm sort of happy that I didn't move out because now I'm not sure how long I will even be working, this job has literally taken every ounce of my being, I'm a broken person. I feel like i'm losing the creativeness and the desire to do anything. I feel like a void, hopefully I can get all of my medical needs taken care of because God knows without this job I would be screwed in that aspect because I'm too old to be on my parents insurance. So, while I've been here since 11am it is now almost 1:00pm I've been looking into a new career field, I feel if I don't now then I will literally be at this shit job until I'm 40 which I can't, for my mental health. I have now at the age of 27 decided that God helped me get this job and I'm just going to put it in his hands now, I'm over it, I'm not going to stress about it.
In other news my birthday is in a few weeks and I will be 28, I remember deleting my old blog and starting this one, I definitely regret deleting the first one, it is always nice to go back a few years and read how life was, I mean to me its depressing and impressive. I was disappointed with a few things and now what I would give to go back to those times. Oh and also in a bit of awkward news, my 10 year high school reunion is coming up, and I have no desire to go to that....no desire at all. I don't keep up with people from high school or college really, it's one of my defects as a human being. That was a side note, I was speaking about my birthday for a moment, anyways me and Nisha are planning a mini road trip, well a mini foodie excursion to San Antonio during that time. I'm glad I have a nice sister, as far as my twin brother I don't know if he will even come, he doesn't bother communicating with me much lately.
I need a fresh start is it sad that I am constantly thinking of selling all of my belongings and moving out of DFW. This is also a bit of random news, I got a perm like two weeks ago so no more natural hair, I really got tired of it, and now I'm rocking an expensive sew in, which I'm getting better at taking care of. I also got a new car, well that happened almost a year ago, since I haven't been keeping up with this blog no one would even know that, it's a chevy equinox, I'm also learning Korean. A bit of my random life. I really need to figure things out. I know it's a bit late but one of my 2015 goals was to move and to have my clavicles pop, which is a weird way of me getting my physical health better, which is one of the reasons for my recent string of doctors appointments. Future posts about those if it all goes well. While I'm working on my physical health I should probably work on my mental health as well. My life is really in the shits, I also need to get rid of some things that have no attachment to me, I need to clear things out of my home and heart.
