Raspberry Tea

So again I feel like I am back in the dumps again, I'm starting to have an unhealthy relationship with food and body image issues. I hate working out but I know I have to and when I try to eat healthy I just fall off the wagon, there is no middle ground for me. I either starve or over eat. I'm trying to find that happy medium, it's really depressing

The stars, The moon....

Well it's definitely been a while, but I'm trying to be a more positive person, so I'm looking on the bright side. My blog posts from last year (2011) were only 31, and I am already at 123, yes major improvement. I am setting a mini goal of blogging the whole month of December and possibly the rest of November. I don't know how that is going to go because I am in the process of moving back to DFW on December 15th after this semester. It is sort of bittersweet thinking about moving and packing up, I think of all the good times I've had in Lubbock over the past 7 years and a weird smile creeps up on my face. I also applied to a MBA program at UTSA so if I get in I will move to San Antonio, if I don't get in, it's living with my parents while I apply for a grown up job. Either way I'm moving somewhere.

I'm making some progress on my room, but I always seem to get distracted with music playing, and trying on clothes that I mysteriously find all around my room. I'm nervous about the future, I am putting this all in God's hands. God knows where I will end up after all so I shouldn't keep worrying about it. He lead me on this whole economics path so I'm trusting him.

Speaking of school I only have 2 and a half weeks left. I have one more exam, a paper, maybe a couple of quizzes and then finals and I'm done. It hit me when I was at work last Tuesday, I was just sitting at my desk thinking about all the people I've met over the past two years working there. That has been the longest time I've been at one job I believe since I turned 18. I've made some good friends there and as much as I complain about it, i'm really going to miss it there.

Lubbock has left an impression in my heart and even though I despise this place sometimes, it will always have a place in my heart. Oh and I can tell my kids how when I was in college the wind would rape your hair everyday, and how the streets would flood, and it was a good day when you didn't get dirt in your mouth. And how sitting on the patio of Chimy's on a Friday after class was well worth the wait.