Raspberry Tea

So again I feel like I am back in the dumps again, I'm starting to have an unhealthy relationship with food and body image issues. I hate working out but I know I have to and when I try to eat healthy I just fall off the wagon, there is no middle ground for me. I either starve or over eat. I'm trying to find that happy medium, it's really depressing

The stars, The moon....

Well it's definitely been a while, but I'm trying to be a more positive person, so I'm looking on the bright side. My blog posts from last year (2011) were only 31, and I am already at 123, yes major improvement. I am setting a mini goal of blogging the whole month of December and possibly the rest of November. I don't know how that is going to go because I am in the process of moving back to DFW on December 15th after this semester. It is sort of bittersweet thinking about moving and packing up, I think of all the good times I've had in Lubbock over the past 7 years and a weird smile creeps up on my face. I also applied to a MBA program at UTSA so if I get in I will move to San Antonio, if I don't get in, it's living with my parents while I apply for a grown up job. Either way I'm moving somewhere.

I'm making some progress on my room, but I always seem to get distracted with music playing, and trying on clothes that I mysteriously find all around my room. I'm nervous about the future, I am putting this all in God's hands. God knows where I will end up after all so I shouldn't keep worrying about it. He lead me on this whole economics path so I'm trusting him.

Speaking of school I only have 2 and a half weeks left. I have one more exam, a paper, maybe a couple of quizzes and then finals and I'm done. It hit me when I was at work last Tuesday, I was just sitting at my desk thinking about all the people I've met over the past two years working there. That has been the longest time I've been at one job I believe since I turned 18. I've made some good friends there and as much as I complain about it, i'm really going to miss it there.

Lubbock has left an impression in my heart and even though I despise this place sometimes, it will always have a place in my heart. Oh and I can tell my kids how when I was in college the wind would rape your hair everyday, and how the streets would flood, and it was a good day when you didn't get dirt in your mouth. And how sitting on the patio of Chimy's on a Friday after class was well worth the wait.

I said I miss you like everyday

I've been listening to non stop Beyonce for about a week now. I finished cleaning my room, I even found my remote, which I hadn't seen in a few months. I got rid of a bunch of old clothes and I will be taking them to the dumpster now. I just need to do laundry and clean the kitchen and living room. What a way to spend Labor day. I wish we still had fall break which  would have been the first or second week of october but Tech got rid of it. So we don't have a break until Thanksgiving. Here's hoping to a good semester, one that goes by relatively fast.

Wake me up when September ends....

Hahahah so fitting as this is the start of September and that is one of my favorite songs.

So I am cleaning up my room, which I know it sounds like everytime I type on this I am cleaning up my room, well I'm getting rid of a ton of things well because I'm only going to be living her till December. I  haven't started applying for schools yet, but I am thinking about UTSA it's in San Antonio, which isn't a bad place but I can get a MBA focusing on business economics, I think that will help me find a job easier in the future.

My friend Archie just got a really nice job offer from Intel in Seattle (Yay to go visit her there) and she just graduated less than a month ago with a Master's in Computer Engineering. That gives me a bit of hope.

well anyway on the whole cleaning thing, I packed up my sewing machine and stuff because  I really don't have time to sew anything, so I just turned it into a continuation of my desk. My actually computer desk barely fits my printer, lamp, a couple of small books, and my laptop. I'm always having to read articles, books, and draw graphs, so the second desk really helps. So I have an area for typing papers and printing them, then an area with books to reference, room to work out problems, and draw graphs. It's sweet. So no more working in my bed.

I also needed to clean up my room because it was sick, also I need to make room for Daisy's new bed so she can sleep in it, after all that time that I spent making it. I haven't done laundry in forever so I also need to go through my two closets.

In case anyone was wondering, my last semester at Tech is in full swing. My classes are extremely difficult. I'm taking Comparative Politics ( with a professor who is too old), Monetary Theory (with Dr. Gilbert, who I thought I would not have to take anymore), Public Finance ( I still haven't bought the book yet), Money, Banking, and FInancial Institutions ( Professor is from Spain and talks really fast) and lastly Commodity, Futures Trading Analysis ( this class is in the Agricultural Sciences building, well it is part of their department Agriculture and Applied Economics) I'm the only black person in that class and probably the whole building. It's so weird and I know nothing about farming. I just want to do well this semester.

Work is alright, boring and sometimes I'm the only person working there. I want another job, but I don't know.

Parents are moving

Only one more day of Summer II and I have a couple of things to do. Finish groups powerpoint presentation, hopefully by today. Give a presentation, finish my final portfolio, and final on thursday. So hopefully by Thursday I will be done with everything and then me and Nisha will go out on Friday to celebrate. I will also start braiding my hair for the fall semester... really really long.

My parents are moving in about a month. I don't even know the address but it's around the same area. They want me and Nisha to live with them. If I decided to go to UNT I will consider it.

Olympics

Well I haven't posted in a while. Basically my life has been consumed by school and work. I don't know, sometimes I get home and I feel like I should at least make an attempt to keep this blog updated just because that was a goal of mine. I just don't really have the desire to do that. I have been going to school non stop and all I have is I believe one more full week of Summer II classes, and then the fall semester and I will have two degrees, and hopefully be able to move out of Lubbock and start a new life. I was actually talking with one of my friends last night who is actually back home in Algeria and he starts school in Paris on the 16th or so of August and he told me that he misses this place. Lubbock, Texas. This place is a windy, dry, shit hole. I have been here for 7 years. OMG 7 years. It's been too long.

Well the olympics are under way and since NBC decided not to show the olympics live in the U.S. I don't really watch it because by the time the events air the results are all ready over the internet. Who decided to air the events practically a whole day or so later than the athletes are competing. This isn't 1956, I mean everyone is connected, every thing is connected. This is the fucking digital age.

Work is so boring, and it makes me so depressed. I think my boss is annoying, and I can't stand to even here him talk. The only positive from work today is that he wasn't in the office and I listened to music on Pandora.

School is basically ruining my life. My 8am class I haven't went to since last Thursday (we had an exam) it's differential calculus. I just need a D...maybe a C. Before this exam I had a very high A because I made a 100 on one exam, and a 100 on the three homework's. That is why I don't go, the lecture is boring and it's at 8am. My technical writing class after that is mandatory. She will deduct points. She treats us like 5 year olds, and I have an A in the class so far. I mean we have a group proposal and my group are filled with people that I cannot stand. They don't really take my ideas into consideration and they really seem to not be too worried about the due date. This project is worth 20% of our grade and they don't really care.

The only positive thing that has happened so far is that I get to day dream about him. I mean why is he so dang good looking. Mr. Ryan Lochte

Hello old friend

It's been a while but in all honesty I was having a really rough go of things lately. Well first of all finals kicked my ass, but I still managed to do pretty well in my math analysis course. I made an A-. As for International Economics (which is what my degree is freaking in) I made a C in Dr. Masha's class which is not what I intended on making, but at this point I was fine with not having to repeat the course. Work has been shit because everyone is on vacation and or moving on with their lives, which basically means I work alone most of the time now. To top it off Summer II has officially started, well it started this past Tuesday and I am stuck with another 8am class.... math at that. Bring it on Calculus II. My technical writing class is a bit of a joke, how to write resumes, cover letters, proposals, power point presentations. Why am I paying thousands of dollars to learn something I can easily get from typing it in a google search. Americans. Three more weeks to go.